My head is LOUD. At any given moment I can have about 4 conversations going on with myself. I sort through every possible outcome, weigh each and every potential criticism and try with all my might to avoid said criticism and the worst outcomes my overactive imagination can conjure up. The past few weeks have been like this. The noise was loud and obnoxious. I was overwhelmed, stressed out and tired. Even more than that, something just felt “off”. I’ve been in that place before and luckily, I’m learning, albeit slowly. Past experience has taught me that this is the end of myself. The place where I find out just how limited my resources/strength/abilities are. It’s the place that says, “Hang it up sister, you’re done.”. I’ve been here too many times to count. Shamefully, I’m hard-headed and it takes me awhile, but I know that as long as I have Jesus, I have peace. On the ride home from the doctor’s appointment, when my world was crumbling- peace. When I held my dad’s hand as his heart thumped it’s last precious beats – peace. Peace in the bitter, peace in the sorrow, peace in uncertainty, peace in happiness and peace in the sweetness of life. Peace because the One who loves me, the One who is more than able, has my life in the palm of His mighty hand. Nothing can touch me that He hasn’t allowed. He is sovereign over every single moment of my life. When I carefully unpack the weight I’ve been carrying and place it on His strong shoulders, I can breathe. I come to the place where I finally rest my weary head and submit to the One who has all strength, wisdom, power, ability and resources. It’s the fork in the road that I stand at. It’s the moment I choose to believe Him over the noise and take the path that He is calling me to walk. Peace. Absolute peace follows.
6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
28 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”
We have weighed all the possibilities, thought about the criticism we are likely to receive and yet we know that He has placed not just Shawn before us, but another precious boy as well. As crazy as people are likely to think we are :), we know that this is right. We are so thrilled to announce that we will be bringing home 2 amazing boys! Murray is Shawn’s age and is at the same orphanage in Eastern Europe. They will be brothers and beloved sons. I have followed this boy’s journey since before we committed to Shawn. I rejoiced when he was chosen and was so saddened when it didn’t work out, twice. I looked at his sweet face and prayed that his family would come for him. I had no idea it would be us. Little by little his smile and his story worked it’s way into our hearts and we knew he was ours. I know many of you will wonder about added expenses and rightfully so! Adding Murray to our adoption will increase our costs by $5,000. Luckily, he has a RR grant of $2,800 towards that. We have been so incredibly blessed by each one of you. Whether you pray for us, for our boys; whether you’ve given or bought something to help us bring them home. Each and every way that you have supported our journey is so appreciated by Scott and I. We see the way that God is using each one of you to bring our boys home and it never ceases to blow us away. THANK YOU!!!
Now, it is my absolute pleasure to introduce you to Murray! Isn’t he so handsome?!